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[26 Aug 2005|07:11pm] |
I am going to put up my same entry to my live journal that i did my xanga because i dont feel like typing it all again.
I am totally hating life right now! I hate it , im not fuckin good enough for anyone. If Alyssa and Josh want to " take a break " then obviously im not good enough for them because its over me. And it's something i did but i cant change it. So what i have some drama in my life. So doesnt every other kid in this world. I'm not good enough for someone else either but i wont menchine the name and why im not good enough for them. Im not good enough for my own mother, she is constently bitching at me for something im doing wrong. God im just in everyone's way lately aren't I ? Anyone else? let me know if i am. Why can't I just be excepted? and no... this is not another " DRAMA" thing or w.e you want to call it. It is called me being fed up with everything that is going on. And plus the fact that im starting h.s Wednesday , thats kinda making me a little nervous.I want my life back that I had at the beginnning of the summer or in the end of 8th grade. That way things we much more calmer than they are now. I mean look at me and Alyssa well not now cause she hates me but i mean we are constrently fighting and argueing . It fuckin sucks. It kind of feels like I have been replaced in everyones life. Tiffanie has Ryan , Alyssa has Josh so its plain to see that she doesnt need me anymore. My mother has her new b.f. and Andrew has Melissa. Everyone has someone to make them either happy or in my terms that have replaced me. Notice I dont fit in any of those catigories? That's because im not good enough for anyone anymore, and noone needs me. And also that i dont make anyone happy anymore. I use to be able to call alyssa up and we would just start laughing ... now her and josh are pretty tight. Where do I fit in and what is my purpose for being here. sounds corny but i dont give a shit im serious.
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[02 Aug 2005|04:26pm] |
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**** i know i dont update this as much as i should but i update my xanga practicallu everyday . so if u look in here and there is not update then just look at my xanga Rockland_love09. ****
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[28 Jul 2005|08:55pm] |
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Matt, Alyssa, Josh , Tiffanie , and I all hung out at my house for a little bit. That was pretty fun. I went to the rec today. I went with tiffanie and Josh and Alyssa... and Ron. < that didnt last long haha.
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[27 Jul 2005|08:39pm] |
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i spent the night at chloe's house and that was hella fun. Then i went to get some kittens for me and tiffanie. I got a black one and she got a white one. Mine is FOXY and hers is Princess. Matt came over to my house for a while. lol that was awkward. Then me and alyssa went down to Holy's house to drop off Randy. I texted matt telling him that i was near his house. Alyssa responded with " GO OUTSIDE JACKASS! " lol that made him move. So he came out to the van and we all chit chatted for a couple minutes.
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[26 Jul 2005|05:06pm] |
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.......................HEAD ACHE!
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[23 Jul 2005|11:31pm] |
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havent updated in awhile. The last update was not suppose to be posted as that. It was suppose to show the picture but it didnt end up working. I went to alyssa's today. I went to my house and was talking with my mother for like ever. Just about stuff. GIRLS IT IS "OK" TO TALK WITH YOUR MOM! lol. Ummm I might go to the bsb concert coming August 10th. I am DETERMIND to go to it. The Click Five is opening up for them I HAVE TO GO! I <3 them haha. i have for like ever now. well....since they came out.
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[22 Jul 2005|01:25am] |
C:\Documents and Settings\Owner\My Documents\My Pictures
^ me! lol
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[20 Jul 2005|09:27pm] |
Insocurety is an awful thing....
it can ruin someones life.
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[16 Jul 2005|08:58am] |
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hey i am headed to portland with josh and alyssa and tiffanie. Josh is taking us to Auquaboggin. Isnt that so nice? lol i thought so. We are going with his father and his sister and her friend. So that should be fun. The only nonfun thing is that we woke up earley. YUCK! i hate getting up early. I got to hang with matt yesterday at the rec for a whole 2 minutes. LONG DAY yesterday. I was in the middle of getting ready to start my day and he txted me and told me to go to the rec. I called tiffanie and alyssa and asked if they wanted to go. Of course lol alyssa had to shower so when i got ready i went to alyssa's house. She just got out of the bathroom by the time i got there. I was worried that matt would like leave or something so i was rushing everyone. He called me and i told him i was on my way. So when everyone was all ready i ran out of the house because matt told me that he was leaving in like 30 seconds lol. Stupid me i thought he litterally meant it so i was hurrying as fast as i could. I had nothing to eat yesterday because u know i didnt really think of it. I finally got onto the street of the rec and then i was fixing my hair while i was looking for Matt. I finally met up with him. It was cool lol. Yeah...i had a day haha. Update more when i get back from Portland.
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[10 Jul 2005|11:55pm] |
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hey, today i went to my grandmothers house in Northport. Alyssa came along with Melissa. She is Andrew's gf (andrew is my brother .. ). and im not 100% sure but i think my mother got drunk lol. She says she wasnt but she was acting kiddy. So idk lol.
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[08 Jul 2005|01:48am] |
Your Summer Anthem is Switch by Will Smith
Back at it, this cat is the wit and the charm
Taking you higher, like a syringe hittin' ya arm
Bringin' the fire, making your Benz ring the alarm
This summer, you bring the party (and attitude) with you wherever you go. |
Your Porn Star Name is: Sandra Spreadum
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| You Are Strawberry Ice Cream |  A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream. |
Your Birthdate: November 15 |
With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene.
The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher.
You are very responsible and capable.
This is an attractive and an attracting influence.
You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it.
You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research.
You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes.
This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup.
You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways. |
You Are 18 Years Old |
18
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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[08 Jul 2005|01:26am] |
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Today was boring. Right now i think everyone is done with their hissy fits. I am listening to Loser kid from Busted.I am talking to Eric and Ron on AIM and Yahoo. Josh...lol buddy cheer up! U'r a sweet-heart so dont let ppl bring u down like some did tonight. It is so not even worth it.
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[01 Jul 2005|06:13pm] |
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Hey, I am home finally lol. Today we went to the doctors with tiffanie , josh and alyssa. It was not fun at all. It didn't seem like josh and alyssa wanted to be there to be honest. We went to BBK for some lunch.Then I came home. See? nothing exciting at all happening today mabey tomorrow will be better.
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[28 Jun 2005|12:13am] |
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Hey, Josh came over to Alyssa's today. That was fun.
We walked to the store to get some batteries and met up with Kassandra and Jessica for a little bit . We were talking. Then we went to the movie rentel and wanted a movie but we couldnt get one. Came back and Josh and Tiffanie decided that they were going to fight so they faught on the lawn and Josh won! Tiffanie and Alyssa faught and Alyssa won. As a result.... Tiffanie sucks lol. We watched Degressi.
<3 I rather be hated for who I am,Than to be loved for who I'm not <3
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[23 Jun 2005|08:09pm] |
Not much happened today . We went swimming. Alyssa and Tiffanie didn't go in . Me , Ashley . Kaitlynn, Josh , Amanda , and Eric went swimming out to the dock. That was fun. Amanda and Josh pushed me off. Lol That was so not cool!! Well we are going for a walk ttyl
<3 Becky
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[23 Jun 2005|12:15am] |
Don't Laugh at me
Don't Call Me Names
Don't Get Your Pleasure From My Pain
In God's Eyes We're All The Same
Some Day We'll All Have Perfect Wings...
Don't Laugh At Me
Today we dyed tiffanie's hair , went to DQ , went to the beach came back to Alyssa's and watched Digrassi. I am tired so I am going to go.
<3 Becky
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[20 Jun 2005|07:10pm] |
Hey went to the beach today. I had a blast! We were there w/ Steven , Chloe , Josh , Myself, Tiffanie , Alyssa , Sabrina , and some guy named Tim. It was fun. We had a wicked hard time trying to get Josh into the water but Mission Occompleshion * sp *. We all went in real deep and it was freezing!!! ttyl
* Becky *
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[19 Jun 2005|08:13pm] |
Just got back from riding around with Melissa, Crystal, Josh , Alyssa, and Tiffanie.
It was fun. Tiffanie got kankles haha she had gotten bit by something and her feet
swelled up. She had to go to the hospital. She's fine. Today was deffently and White
Sticks adventer type day haha.
Be sexy
Be true
Be Wild
Be you
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[19 Jun 2005|10:48am] |
Hey i just woke up. Alyssa is in the shower so i am waiting on her so i can take one. I am listening to the click five - say goodnight. It is an awsome song honestly. Haha they are coming to maine in august. With bsb. Im not in to the bsb i just want to see them. I am probably going to hang out with alyssa and josh down at the rec or something idk. Tomorrow is the last day of school . Thank god. This year was hell. Hopefully next year will be better. Well ttyl
* Never frown because you never know who's falling in love with your smile * :)
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